Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Give me this day … my life


Why me?
Why us?
Caged.
 
For they fought
A battle and called it ours.
 
Why me?
Why us?
We did not hurt any.

We did not know,
what they wanted,
what we wanted,
for our simple lives
were beyond it all.

Why me?
Why us?
They are no more.

But we go on suffering,
for sins of others.

The priest once said
Jesus Christ did just that,
suffered for other’s sins.

I am not,
we are not,
with any call from God,
or anyone else,
willing to suffer for the sins of others.

Please hear me out,
in God’s name
I do not,
we do not,
wish to be caged,
even when freedom is a far cry.

We need to fly …
Fly far and afar.

Please give me wings.
But before that
some water,
some food,
a better shelter,
my dignity, my honour,
my land, my life.

 
Renton de Alwis
Written in June 2009

Monday, December 10, 2012

Not for them

Came into recall mode on hearing of the newly released film "Prathiru" .... 

They made a business
of this war

for so long.
For nearly
thirty years',
it is my blood,
my life and my soul,
they sold.

Yet, I was willing
to forgive and forget.

For
what else
could I do,

hapless, helpless?

I heard songs
singing my praises.                                                                                                   
Parades,
where they salute us.

Limbs for the limbless,
arms for the armless.
Monuments built,
I see,

with donations on TV.

Wije’s mother
got a fancy packet
in compensation
for the loss of her son.

They
bought her grief
and my colleague’s soul.
I just can not
let that happen,
I thought

only when
I saw Gune,
next to me
on the bunker floor

gaze in my eyes, 
wet with tears,

blood
on the corner of his mouth,
reaching out for a breath of life …

I said NO.
Enough is enough.
I will not
let them ever again

buy my soul.

I will fight,
fight to the end.

Not for them,
but for us.


 
by Renton de Alwis
Written in June 2009

 

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Thesavalami தேசவழமை லா

Based on a true incident I was told of, of a conversation between two friends who belonged to the upper cast Tamil community. They had been classmates at one of Colombo’s leading schools. One had continued to live in Jaffna throughout the times of LTTE terror and rule and the other had left Sri Lanka’s shores to settle down in Canada and had returned for a holiday. These friends had met for a dinner outing, sometime during the ceasefire agreement, when both expressed interest in selling off their ancestral land in the North.  




What is mine
will be yours...

 
but only
if you were
my own kith and kin.

No one,
outside of family,
my village, my caste,
can take away this,
my birth right,

to what my father,
his father before him,
and his…and his …
made good,

for and on behalf of the Dutch.
 
The good old Dutch.
They were aware
that we must not
let those
from the South, West, Centre
or
even the East,
with their riches,
buy our land,
pollute our culture,
and encroach on us.

For them,
it served well,
to keep us apart.
For us,
it gave us fodder
to feel a sense of superiority,
over others.

Others, who are not us.

But what
good is it now,
for we are redefined,
reformulated,
and topsy-turvyed,
beyond recognition?

They did not care
for the whose-who.
Only ones
holding the gun ruled.
Boys and girls,
from families,
not the likes of ours,
now held those guns,
hurried in their mufti uniforms
and even took away,
high-cast boys and girls,
for their fight.

Ha! better still,
they called it,
our fight.

What good is this land,
with limited deeds.
Only Tambi in Montreal,
said he wants it
for sentimental reasons.

Why should I
hold it for him?
For he left us in the lurch,
for sentimental reasons.
And wants
to come now,
to buy this land.
“For sentimental reasons!”

It was
Bertolt Brecht
I think,
who said in his play,
‘Caucasian Chalk Circle’,
with that
rascal Judge Azdak,
sitting in judgment;

“What there is shall belong,
to those who are good for it.”

 
Renton de Alwis
Written in June 2009

Saturday, December 8, 2012

දෝෂාභියෝගය


නොමළ ගෙයකින්
අබ ගෙනෙන්නට
කිසාගෝතමියට කීවේ
බුදුන් මිස
අඡාසත් රජකු නොව.
 

රෙන්ටන් ද අල්විස්ගෙ පබැඳුමක්
2012 දෙසැම්බර් මස 08 වැනිදා සෙනසුරාදා

Friday, December 7, 2012

අධ්‍යාපනය (On Education)












  කවම කවදාකවත් ඹබ දැන උගත් දේ මුදලට නොවිකුනන්න. ඒ අරැතක් ඇති අධ්‍යාපනය   විකිනීමට හෝ මුදල් ගෙවා ගත හැක්කක් හෝ නොවන නිසාවෙනි.

Only twenty million

Based on an incident that occurred during the time I served as Chairman of the Sri Lanka Tourism Development Authority between 2007 and 09. The conversation herein is between a hopeful developer of  a tourist resort and I. 
 

"He wanted twenty million,
for access to the land.
Would you believe it?"

"Twenty million Rupees for that island
is such a bargain!"
"How in the world did you get it,
so damn cheap?"

"No, no, that is not
the value of the island’s land,
it is what,
the local politico wanted from me,
to give me access to the island,
from the mainland."

"The land was a lease, on a top level decree ...
This was only to get,
the Land officer to approve the access."

"What a fiasco?
We must inform the very top.
Will you give this to me in writing?"

"In writing? 
I will get killed if I do...."
"...You know,
if only,
had he asked,
for two million and not twenty,
we could have been in business."

"He is too greedy,
and wants to make a fast buck."

What else could I do,
But laugh-out loud?

When all are silent,
No song will be sung.
Without givers,
Can there be takers?
 

Renton de Alwis
June 2009

Thursday, December 6, 2012

පගාව

දුන්නම ගන්නා
අරන් දුවන්නා
දුන්නට ගන්නා
වැ
ඩේ කෙරන්නා ...

දෙන්න දෙනා දන
ටෙන්ඩර් දානා
යටින් ගහපු කොළ
ඉහලට එන්නා ...

නොදුන් නිසා දොළ
පීදෙණි තටුවා
ඉහලින් ඇති කොළ
පහලට වැටුනා ...

වැඩේ තරම මැන
ගනන් හදන්නා
ඇදුරන්ටත් තව
ගොටු ගැට ගැහුවා ...

දන්න දනා දැන
විපරම් කෙරැවා
අන්ධ වීම සුබ
ලකුණක් වුවා ...

උන් කරනා විට
මං කෙරැවම මොට
දුන්නේ හරහට
නොවන්න මේකට ...


දුන්න දනා මිස
නොදුන් දනන් මඳ
සිටිනා ලොවකට
යක්කුන් මොකටද ...

ලොකු පාසලකට
ළමුන් අරින්නට
ලිපිනය මේ යැයි
බොරැ දෙසනා විට ...

මුදලට යටවුනු
සුපිරි යකුන් ඇති
මුල්ගුරැ මේසයෙ
ලාච්චු ඇර ඇත ...

දරැවන් හඟිනා
මුල් පාඩම නෙද
බොරැවෙන් රඡයන
ලොවක් උරැම බව ...

දෙස්පලු මාමලා
කුවේර සීයලා
සේවෙට කැපවුනු
සේවක මාමලා ...

දුන්නම ගන්නව
ඉල්ලං ගන්නව
දකිනා, හඟිනා
සැම සිත් සසලය ...

එහා ලොවින් එන
පිදේණි ලොකු විට
ලොකු ලොකු ඇත්තන්
යක්කුන් වී එත ...

ලැබු පිදේණිය
බර වැඩි වූවම
ගන්න දන්න දන
පෝලිම දස අත ...

දෙන එකාල දෙන
පිදේණි දුටුවම
ගන්න ඉන්න දන
යක්ෂ වේෂ ගෙන ...

ආරෑඩෙන් මෙන
ආතුර දන මැන
මතුරති නිතරම
දෙන්න දෙනෝ දන ...

රටක් හදන තැන
සිපිරියො ඇති තැන
නීති රකින තැන
සසුන් රකින තැන ...

විකුනන, විකිනෙන
ලෝකෙක, කාලෙක
දෙනු ගනු කෝලම
ඡන ගත වී ඇත ...

ඡරාව කන බොන
යකුන් සිටින විට
නොදෙන දනන් හට
කාගේ පිහිටද ?

රෙන්ටන් ද අල්විස් පබැදුමක්, 2012 දෙසැම්බර හයවන දින

Corruption

by Renton de Alwis

What school did you go to?
They asked.
What am I to say?
What does that matter?

Which club do you belong to?
They asked.What am I to say?
What does it matter?

What values did they teach you?
What skills do you have?
Are you a good man?
Can you be trusted?
Do you help the fallen?
Do you care to care?
Do you give?
Do you take? 

They never asked me that.

Are you blind?
Can you see?
Do you hear?
Do you listen?
How well do you speak?
Enjoy the sounds of silence?

They never asked me that.

Only, if I went to the right school,
played for the right club,
knew the right people,
and spoke like they did.

That is all they asked.

If this is not corruption,
What then is?

 
Written in June 2009

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

සොයා ගිය මඟ

 












මමය, මාගේය,
සොයා ගිය මඟ...
නොමවීය මගෙ, ඔබගේය.

අසරණව සරන
පියාපත් සිඳි කුරැල්ලකු,
අහස අසිරිය විඳින්නට
තතනනා සේ ...

සරන මඟ, මාගේය,
දකින අසිරිය, ඔබගේය...
සරන්නට මඟ,
හෙලි පෙහෙලි කළ
වළාකුලු බිඳි,
සුළඟ, ඔබගේය...

කළු වළා මාගේය,
දවාලන අකුණු සැර, ඔබගේය.

සරන මඟ අවුරනා
ඝණ වළා පටල තිර,
කිණිහිරක් සේ ඉරන,
තියුණු නෙතු, ඔබගේය...

ඒ නෙතින් බලන්නට,
කඳුලු බිඳු තනන්නට,
ඉන් සයුරැ මවන්නට,
ගිලී එහි මියෙන්නට,
දරන තැත, ඔබගේය...

ඒ නෙතින් කිණිහිරක්,
තනන්නට, මවන්නට,
අකුණු වැල් විදින්නට,
සිහින තටු බිඳින්නට,
බිඳ දමා දවන්නට...
සැදුනු සිත...
මාගේය.

රෙන්ටන් ද අල්විස් පබැදුමක්, 2012 දෙසැම්බර හතරවන දින.
මා ළඟකදි භාවිකය ඉගෙන ගත් සිංහළ යතුරැබනු පුවරැවට පින්.

The Chioce

by Renton de Alwis

 
I am my own enemy.
For no one else will ever bother,
to take me to a precipice to push me down.
An unbearable thought
in a world where they wait in line,
to push you down.

 

I want to be pushed down…
or else I will choose to jump myself,
for my  yearning to seek what’s there
in that bottomless pit,
overwhelms me.

 

Consuming all of me,
a fire of rage will otherwise
burn me to ashes.
Nothing… nothing will be left
for you or me,
only for the urn, will there be some.
For memories are cherished
more than the now.

 

The now of what goes
to make that memory
is what I seek.

 
The reality of pain, joy, love and whatever else,
I can not wait, but take the plunge.
I ask of you to push me down,
hard, hard … as if nothing else mattered.

 

Written in July 2009

 

Monday, December 3, 2012

A day … a day

by Renton de Alwis
 

What’s in a day?
A day!
dawn, noon, an eve and …


‘I measure my life with coffee spoons’
Oh! how I wish,
I could have had Elliot,
stored away in some dark bin,
or have him disappear,

for I only want to measure mine, 
with pol katu handi.


It’s a lovely morning,
and for sure
will be a great noon.
In this,
the eve of my life,

I would never
let it stand still.

There's so much
wonder
and so much pain.


A day, a day,
in a lifetime,
in Sansara,
is but,
only
a glimpse.

 

Sunday, December 2, 2012

See-Saw

by Renton de Alwis










I see now, now I don’t,
I saw then, now I don’t.
On ground then,
now stay lifted,
feet on ground,
feet off ground.


Breathe air fresh
I do now, now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t.
Hot, hot sweat,
I do now, now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t


Breezing wind
I do now, now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t.
Hold on tight
I do now, now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t.


Let go hold
I do now, now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t.
Discord and hurt,
I do now. Now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t.

Hold that smile
I do now, now I don’t
I did then, now I don’t.
Shout out loud,
I did then …
Now I don’t.

Whisper and sigh
I did then …
I do now.

Written in March  2010

Saturday, December 1, 2012

TO MONA LISA

by Renton de Alwis      
 
I think you are ugly, selfish
and too fat.
Why you are a luminary,
            I never could understand.
The rest of the world must be crazy.

 
You couldn’t……
Did you ever give yourself totally
            to your man, Mona Lisa?
Did you love him selflessly?

 
You wanted the whole world to
            love and adore you……
You would not otherwise have let
            Da Vinci prostitute you to mankind.

 
I see no beauty in you,
            only an obsession, you are too straight, artificial.
The way you rest your hands on each other,
            so calculatingly,
Your nose is too fine……
You have no heart,
            only a set of lumpy breasts,  
            to cover up the hollowness inside……

You clothe yourself to hide all this,
            and took so much space on the canvas.

The critics and others blind,
            had got me to love you for so many years……
through out my youth,
            until I saw, for myself,
The real you.


First Published in ‘Navasilu’ edited by Prof. Ashley Halpe in 1976 and then in  ‘ Modern Sri Lankan Poetry; An  Anthology’ – Edited by Prof. DCRA Goonetilleke 1987